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Originally posted by sharkattack:
In my case my Mother was Bi-polar/Manic depressive. My mom was a registered nurse. According to all her co-workers she was very caring with all her patients. She was a great mother to me. Took the best care of me. She had me when she was just 17. Had to drop out of school and go to work to raise me.

When I got older she went back to school and busted her ass. Seemed to turn her whole life around but there was still her depression that would rear it's ass from time to time. She always seemed to be in control though.

She got pregnant with my sister at 39. After my sister was born my mom seemed to spiral down hill. In and out of the hospital. My dad just became frustrated and filed for divorce (I didn't blame him)

My dad wanted sole custody of my sister who was 3 at the time and I think my mom in a cloud of confusion from meds, depression, and anxiety thought my dad would get sole custody.

She called my grandmother and told her what she had planned to do. When she got to SF, she parked on the SF side and made her way to the bridge. When she got there the gate was locked. She had locked herself out of her car too. She went to a pay phone and called for a tow truck who came and unlocked the car for her. My mom called my grandmother and said "I guess it's not my time. I'm coming home"

Now we have no idea of what happened after that but my guess is my mom drove back onto the bridge and headed south. While on the bridge she saw people walking back toward the Marin side.

She parked her car on the Marin side and waited for people to come back out the locked gate then slipped in. It was late at night. No one heared from her again.

CHP had the car towed and during the inventory located my mom's purse, several suicide notes to my dad, family, grandmother, and myself. They also found her shoes,car keys, and cell phone.

I came home from work late that night and my girlfriend told me my mom was missing and that they found her car. I knew right then what she had done and was crushed.

It was hard to have to go pick up her car from the tow yard. There was never any closure due to her body never being recovered. At the time she apparently jumped, the tide was going out.

I have only read her letter one time, can't bring myself to read how much she was hurting. My sister was lucky to not have to endure what happend but she has been cheated by not know how much she was realy loved by her mother.


As far as suicde barriers? I am opposed to them. Waste of money. Never would have saved my mom. It wasn't her 1st attempt, it wouldn't have been her last. Someone else maybe, I don't know. This is just my experience.

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Just happened to skip all the other posts and got right to yours

Very sorry to hear such an emotional story Sharky.

The mind can do sooooo many things.....good and bad!

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Originally posted by Pittsburg Mustang Owner:
Step ya bootleg game up lol j/p.


Here is part 1 of the FULL video. The following parts are to the right in the related videos box.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORF0tbF20Jg

Very good Doc. in my opinion. Very sad too...

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Originally posted by sharkattack:
In my case my Mother was Bi-polar/Manic depressive. My mom was a registered nurse. According to all her co-workers she was very caring with all her patients. She was a great mother to me. Took the best care of me. She had me when she was just 17. Had to drop out of school and go to work to raise me.

When I got older she went back to school and busted her ass. Seemed to turn her whole life around but there was still her depression that would rear it's ass from time to time. She always seemed to be in control though.

She got pregnant with my sister at 39. After my sister was born my mom seemed to spiral down hill. In and out of the hospital. My dad just became frustrated and filed for divorce (I didn't blame him)

My dad wanted sole custody of my sister who was 3 at the time and I think my mom in a cloud of confusion from meds, depression, and anxiety thought my dad would get sole custody.

She called my grandmother and told her what she had planned to do. When she got to SF, she parked on the SF side and made her way to the bridge. When she got there the gate was locked. She had locked herself out of her car too. She went to a pay phone and called for a tow truck who came and unlocked the car for her. My mom called my grandmother and said "I guess it's not my time. I'm coming home"

Now we have no idea of what happened after that but my guess is my mom drove back onto the bridge and headed south. While on the bridge she saw people walking back toward the Marin side.

She parked her car on the Marin side and waited for people to come back out the locked gate then slipped in. It was late at night. No one heared from her again.

CHP had the car towed and during the inventory located my mom's purse, several suicide notes to my dad, family, grandmother, and myself. They also found her shoes,car keys, and cell phone.

I came home from work late that night and my girlfriend told me my mom was missing and that they found her car. I knew right then what she had done and was crushed.

It was hard to have to go pick up her car from the tow yard. There was never any closure due to her body never being recovered. At the time she apparently jumped, the tide was going out.

I have only read her letter one time, can't bring myself to read how much she was hurting. My sister was lucky to not have to endure what happend but she has been cheated by not know how much she was realy loved by her mother.


As far as suicde barriers? I am opposed to them. Waste of money. Never would have saved my mom. It wasn't her 1st attempt, it wouldn't have been her last. Someone else maybe, I don't know. This is just my experience.

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Originally posted by sharkattack:
In my case my Mother was Bi-polar/Manic depressive. My mom was a registered nurse. According to all her co-workers she was very caring with all her patients. She was a great mother to me. Took the best care of me. She had me when she was just 17. Had to drop out of school and go to work to raise me.

When I got older she went back to school and busted her ass. Seemed to turn her whole life around but there was still her depression that would rear it's ass from time to time. She always seemed to be in control though.

She got pregnant with my sister at 39. After my sister was born my mom seemed to spiral down hill. In and out of the hospital. My dad just became frustrated and filed for divorce (I didn't blame him)

My dad wanted sole custody of my sister who was 3 at the time and I think my mom in a cloud of confusion from meds, depression, and anxiety thought my dad would get sole custody.

She called my grandmother and told her what she had planned to do. When she got to SF, she parked on the SF side and made her way to the bridge. When she got there the gate was locked. She had locked herself out of her car too. She went to a pay phone and called for a tow truck who came and unlocked the car for her. My mom called my grandmother and said "I guess it's not my time. I'm coming home"

Now we have no idea of what happened after that but my guess is my mom drove back onto the bridge and headed south. While on the bridge she saw people walking back toward the Marin side.

She parked her car on the Marin side and waited for people to come back out the locked gate then slipped in. It was late at night. No one heared from her again.

CHP had the car towed and during the inventory located my mom's purse, several suicide notes to my dad, family, grandmother, and myself. They also found her shoes,car keys, and cell phone.

I came home from work late that night and my girlfriend told me my mom was missing and that they found her car. I knew right then what she had done and was crushed.

It was hard to have to go pick up her car from the tow yard. There was never any closure due to her body never being recovered. At the time she apparently jumped, the tide was going out.

I have only read her letter one time, can't bring myself to read how much she was hurting. My sister was lucky to not have to endure what happend but she has been cheated by not know how much she was realy loved by her mother.


As far as suicde barriers? I am opposed to them. Waste of money. Never would have saved my mom. It wasn't her 1st attempt, it wouldn't have been her last. Someone else maybe, I don't know. This is just my experience.

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wow that's so sad, and so real. fuckin crazy man. I'd be hella mad, prolly feel like it was my fault if my mom did that.

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It's a very sad thing. I know when my mom committed suicide , I remember one of the first things you learn, is that it is never anyones fault. A person, who commits suicide has issues that only they can control. It's hard to ever understand the why's, but you have to look past all that. Just remember the good.

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It's a very sad thing. I know when my mom committed suicide , I remember one of the first things you learn, is that it is never anyones fault. A person, who commits suicide has issues that only they can control. It's hard to ever understand the why's, but you have to look past all that. Just remember the good.

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How long ago did your mom die?

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It's a very sad thing. I know when my mom committed suicide , I remember one of the first things you learn, is that it is never anyones fault. A person, who commits suicide has issues that only they can control. It's hard to ever understand the why's, but you have to look past all that. Just remember the good.

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How long ago did your mom die?

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She took her life in 1994. Unlike jumping, she took 50 tranquilizers and 998 asprin. According to the reports, the tranquilizers numbed the body so she wouldn't feel anything, and then the asprin liquified her insides. The last 2 tabs of the 1000 tab bottle were stuck to the inside of the bottle.

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